Today I fully understand that something needs to change.
I'm not exactly sure where to start but I am analyzing everything.
Friend currently is on a sober kick since beginning May, says he sees everything clearer now.
The only thing I've noticed is he is a little more snappy, but what do I know.
Maybe that's something I should consider?
BUT at the end of the day, that is not my problem.
The problem is how to pay for rent. I am an artist and money fluctuates constantly.
I know the answer is simple, a job.
So the other problem is keeping that job....
I'll give you a short background, at 14 I started working at Chick-Fil-A. I felt like they didn't appreciate me, I quit after three long years without any notice after my shift, to the new manager (This happened around May 2011). Ever since then I have worked at 5 places, staying around a month at each.
Now you understand I have a problem sticking to a job. Don't get me wrong, I work hard and they love me, but one day I just get tired of waking up early or going in late that I don't show up, I make an excuse, I am forgiven and then a couple days later it happens again. My checks are normally then mailed to me, or I pick them up when I know the managers are absent and I go on my merry way, never to be seen or heard from again.
Don't ask why and don't try to understand.
It's something time will tell.
Until then I am the lonely scavenger artist who scrapes for anything possible in order to work on the art that brings happiness and passion into life. The art that fills the holes in my heart and connects wires within my body.
The overtaking connection between human and nature.
